Circle of Life

That phrase is used in a lot of ways, but specifically I am referring to the act of making a circle, putting in various aspects and then scoring them.  This exercise is supposed to illustrate where things are lacking and where too much energy is used in other areas.  If I would have done this last year, only four of the 10 areas would have had any percentage of my energy.  Now I can say that some attention is paid to six out of ten, but still the emphasis is on the big four – work, living space, family, finances.  My blogging projects have helped in two areas – creativity and spirituality, mainly creativity which is spiritual.  This leaves health / fitness, fun, friends and relationship sorely lacking.  I’m healthy and have lots of friends, but I guess I take those things for granted and figure some day, when I have time, I’ll put more effort in those areas.  That’s kind of pathetic, when paying attention to them would also help in the fitness, fun and maybe relationship areas. Meanwhile, I forgot to do some important things at work and that’s what I was thinking about when I woke up this morning.

The Divine

I do feel that if one walks cheerfully over the earth answering that of god in everyone and chooses love over fear and trusts that things will work out one way or another and that everyone has gifts or a purpose, one is connected to spirit.  I know that when I don’t use my gifts, I’m overly nice to the point of getting walked upon and / or choose fear, that life sucks.  When I do answer that of god (sometimes buried in layers) yet protect myself from the layers, live with love and use my gifts, then I have a wonderful sense of contentment and joy.  What I am still lacking is the ability to see that of god in my self.  If I did, I would consider my gifts and needs as a priority and take better care of myself, loving myself, my body and living a more balanced life.  This is what this blog is supposed to be about – getting to that point. It’s hard to learn all of this stuff when it was so lacking while growing up, but not impossible, just needing more effort.

The Mundane

Yesterday I decided that today I would write about spirituality. Something that is difficult for me to verbalize, but something I feel very strongly. This morning, I am filled with thoughts of the mundane. How to get all of my errands done today during lunch, to avoid dealing with the pre storm crowds tomorrow. Boring. The next storm will probably get in my way of participating in my spiritual community again this week. Things always seem to get in the way. My night person living a day person’s life tiredness, what feels like an unending time of storms and ice etc etc.

Two Feet

I took my resentment to a place where I heard that a spiritual master from India had spoken about how we have and need two feet to walk in balance.  One foot (similar to our brains) represents the spiritual, emotional creative side and the other foot represents our busyness doing.  If you spend all of your time on one foot, your walk and life are out of balance.  Americans tend to spend most of their time on their busy foot. No wonder I’ve been having foot pain on & off this past year.  I canceled plans I didn’t want to do, then went home to ‘be creative’ and relax, after a spiritual morning and my resentment is gone and my foot pain has subsided.