Okay

I know that writing my morning pages encourages creativity and helps with my stress level and yet, I have been having a hard time writing them recently.  Half of my brain revolves around worry about what will happen at work, to allergies, taxes, bills, the news, to exhaustion, to wondering how I have managed to get to this place and shape in the process of busyness.  The other half of my brain is in an almost frenzy of wanting to photograph every minute of my waking day, but I can’t – because of all the reasons above.  I’m going to take myself out and about both days over the weekend, beyond my usual radius, to photograph and explore.

The Divine

I do feel that if one walks cheerfully over the earth answering that of god in everyone and chooses love over fear and trusts that things will work out one way or another and that everyone has gifts or a purpose, one is connected to spirit.  I know that when I don’t use my gifts, I’m overly nice to the point of getting walked upon and / or choose fear, that life sucks.  When I do answer that of god (sometimes buried in layers) yet protect myself from the layers, live with love and use my gifts, then I have a wonderful sense of contentment and joy.  What I am still lacking is the ability to see that of god in my self.  If I did, I would consider my gifts and needs as a priority and take better care of myself, loving myself, my body and living a more balanced life.  This is what this blog is supposed to be about – getting to that point. It’s hard to learn all of this stuff when it was so lacking while growing up, but not impossible, just needing more effort.

New Year – Old Ideas

I decided to not go out last night. The weather was abysmal, so I watched a 1938 Frank Capra movie. I was amazed at the ideas in this film, from over 70 years ago, that fill the self help, new age shelves of any current book store. There was a scene where Jean Arthur talked about how her grandfather felt that everyone was living such fear based lives and then Jimmy Stewart said that he wanted to harness the power of the sun for energy to replace coal and oil. Basically, it was showing the difference between people driven by money and power versus those who followed their bliss. The power of creativity, friendship and community over Wall St.

PS

I need to go back to my Fear and Love post and stop freaking out about things that may or may not happen. Live in the now and proceed.

Fear and Love

Every few years, there seems to be a time when everything falls apart and then rights itself again.  Nearing the end of one of the falling apart times, I am wondering if this time I will actually learn a lesson or two.

As the title suggests, falling into fear is easy, but really is pointless, because things do come around.