Okay

I know that writing my morning pages encourages creativity and helps with my stress level and yet, I have been having a hard time writing them recently.  Half of my brain revolves around worry about what will happen at work, to allergies, taxes, bills, the news, to exhaustion, to wondering how I have managed to get to this place and shape in the process of busyness.  The other half of my brain is in an almost frenzy of wanting to photograph every minute of my waking day, but I can’t – because of all the reasons above.  I’m going to take myself out and about both days over the weekend, beyond my usual radius, to photograph and explore.

Errands

Because I took Saturday off, I had many errands to run yesterday.  After four hours of racing to various stores, bank etc, I was utterly and totally exhausted.  Home to make a rather elaborate dinner and required family phone calls and then I could only melt into the couch to veg out in front of the tv.  My dog had only a short walk, I stole only a few minutes for photographing.  There’s got to be a better way.  I will try to make today better, by concentrating equally on what still has to be done and what I still want and need to do to save this day off.

Night & Day

The difference between a busy day at work and an okay weekend day is so dramatic.  I still haven’t recovered from yesterday and barely remember the days before.  The meetings, the feuds, the crazy vagueness, going, going, going.  Bleh.  Even my few minutes at lunch to take pictures didn’t work out and that has been my saving grace during the week lately.  Complain, complain.  That said – today is another day and I will try to look forward to what the day may bring.

Shoveling Slop

Trying to figure out a metaphor for all of my time shoveling yesterday. Snow at home, snow at work, ice at work, ice and sloppy slush at home. While at work and not shoveling there, one person after another came to me with their problems (slop) and wanted me to fix (shovel) it up for them. Basically, after 10 hours of shoveling both kinds of slop, I was exhausted – plain pure exhaustion. Time to go deal with the ice today here and there and wondering if it will be a slippery day literally and figuratively at work as well.

Work & Friendships

My crazy day did materialize as such, but in between all the racing moments, there were so many moments of friendship with people.  I need to remember this as the reason I stay, even when I come home so drained and exhausted.  In between meetings, I was able to take photos and that too was good.  Now to find a way to lessen the profound tiredness at the end of the day.

Nothing

The holiday exhausted me – in many ways – so, I did basically nothing yesterday.  Spent the day recharging my energy.  Nothing can be the best something some times.