Habits

I used to go to my spiritual community every Sunday morning without fail, but for the last few years my attendance became sporadic and now I haven’t been in months. I woke up too late this morning and have so much to do – because I didn’t do my to dos yesterday. I’m feeling uncomfortable showing up because it means rushing and because I have gotten out of the habit and I don’t want comments. How can I define myself as something and not show up for it? There’s also this feeling that they are going to ask me to do work and I’m worked out. Maybe I will rush this morning and get back in the habit – because it was a very good habit (minus my inability to say no to volunteerism).

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